I began now to perceive my Powder abated considerably, and this was a Want which it was impossible for me to supply, and I began seriously to consider what I must do when I should have no more Powder; —
that is to say, how I should do to kill any Goat. I had, as is observ’d in the third Year of my being here, kept a young Kid, and bred her up tame, and I was in hope of getting a He-Goat, but I could not by any Means bring it to pass, ‘till my Kid grew an old Goat; —
and I could never find in my Heart to kill her, till she dy’d at last of meer Age.
But being now in the eleventh Year of my Residence, and, as I have said, my Ammunition growing low, I set my self to study some Art to trap and snare the Goats, to see whether I could not catch some of them alive, and particularly I wanted a She-Goat great with young.
To this Purpose I made Snares to hamper them, and I do believe they were more than once taken in them, but my Tackle was not good, for I had no Wire, and I always found them broken, and my Bait devoured.
At length I resolv’d to try a Pit-fall, so I dug several large Pits in the Earth, in Places where I had observ’d the Goats used to feed, and over these Pits I plac’d Hurdles of my own baking too, with a great Weight upon them; —
and several times I put Ears of Barley, and dry Rice, without setting the Trap, and I could easily perceive that the Goats had gone in and eaten up the Corn, for I could see the Mark of their Feet. At length I set three Traps in one Night, and going the next Morning I found them all standing, and yet the Bait eaten and gone: —
This was very discouraging. However, I alter’d my Trap, and, not to trouble you with Particulars, going one Morning to see my Trap, I found in one of them a large old He-Goat, and in one of the other, three Kids, a Male and two Females.
As to the old one, I knew not what to do with him, he was so fierce I durst not go into the Pit to him; —
that is to say, to go about to bring him away alive, which was what I wanted. —
I could have kill’d him, but that was not my Business, nor would it answer my End. So I e’en let him out, and he ran away as if he had been frighted out of his Wits: —
But I had forgot then what I learn’d afterwards, that Hunger will tame a Lyon. If I had let him stay there three or four Days without Food, and then have carry’d him some Water to drink, and then a little Corn, he would have been as tame as one of the Kids, for they are mighty sagacious tractable Creatures where they are well used.
However, for the present I let him go, knowing no better at that time; —
then I went to the three Kids, and taking them one by one, I tyed them with Strings together, and with some Difficulty brought them all home.
It was a good while before they wou’d feed, but throwing them some sweet Corn, it tempted them and they began to be tame; —
and now I found that if I expected to supply my self with Goat-Flesh when I had no Powder or Shot left, breeding some up tame was my only way, when perhaps I might have them about my House like a Flock of Sheep.
But then it presently occurr’d to me, that I must keep the tame from the wild, or else they would always run wild when they grew up, and the only Way for this was to have some enclosed Piece of Ground, well fenc’d either with Hedge or Pale, to keep them in so effectually, that those within might not break out, or those without break in.
This was a great Undertaking for one Pair of Hands, yet as I saw there was an absolute Necessity of doing it, my first Piece of Work was to find out a proper Piece of Ground, viz. —
where there was likely to be Herbage for them to eat, Water for them to drink, and Cover to keep them from the Sun.
Those who understand such Enclosures will think I had very little Contrivance, when I pitch’d upon a Place very proper for all these, being a plain open Piece of Meadow-Land, or Savanna, (as our People call it in the Western Collonies, ) which had two or three little Drills’ of fresh Water in it, and at one end was very woody. —
I say they will smile at my Forecast, when I shall tell them I began my enclosing of this Piece of Ground in such a manner, that my Hedge or Pale must have been at least two Mile about. —
Nor was the Madness of it so great as to the Compass, for if it was ten Mile about I was like to have time enough to do it in. —
But I did not consider that my Goats would be as wild in so much Compass as if they had had the whole Island, and I should have so much Room to chace them in, that I should never catch them.
My Hedge was begun and carry’d on, I believe, about fifty Yards, when this Thought occurr’d to me, so I presently stopt short, and for the first beginning I resolv’d to enclose a Piece of about 150 Yards in length, and 100 Yards in breadth, which as it would maintain as many as I should have in any reasonable time, so as my Flock encreased, I could add more Ground to my Enclosure.
This was acting with some Prudence, and I went to work with Courage. —
I was about three Months hedging in the first Piece, and till I had done it I tether’d the three Kids in the best part of it, and us’d them to feed as near me as possible to make them familiar; —
and very often I would go and carry them some Ears of Barley, or a handful of Rice, and feed them out of my Hand; —
so that after my Enclosure was finished, and I let them loose, they would follow me up and down, bleating after me for a handful of Corn.
This answer’d my End, and in about a Year and half I had a Flock of about twelve Goats, Kids and all; —
and in two Years more I had three and forty, besides several that I took and kill’d for my Food. And after that I enclosed five several Pieces of Ground to feed them in, with little Pens to drive them into, to take them as I wanted, and Gates out of one Piece of Ground into another.
But this was not all, for now I not only had Goats Flesh to feed on when I pleas’d, but Milk too, a thing which indeed in my beginning I did not so much as think of, and which, when it came into my Thoughts, was really an agreeable Surprize. —
For now I set up my Dairy, and had sometimes a Gallon or two of Milk in a Day. And as Nature, who gives Supplies of Food to every Creature, dictates even naturally how to make use of it; —
so I that had never milk’d a Cow, much less a Goat, or seen Butter or Cheese made, very readily and handily, tho’ after a great many Essays and Miscarriages, made me both Butter and Cheese at last, and never wanted it afterwards.
How mercifully can our great Creator treat his Creatures, even in those Conditions in which they seem’d to be overwhelm’d in Destruction. —
How can he sweeten the bitterest Providences, and give us Cause to praise him for Dungeons and Prisons. —
What a Table was here spread for me in a Wilderness, where I saw nothing at first but to perish for Hunger.
It would have made a Stoick smile to have seen, me and my little Family sit down to Dinner; —
there was my Majesty the Prince and Lord of the whole island; I had the Lives of all my Subjects at my absolute Command. —
I could hang, draw, give Liberty, and take it away, and no Rebels among all my Subjects.
Then to see how like a King I din’d too all alone, attended by my Servants, Poll, as if he had been my Favourite, was the only Person permitted to talk to me. —
My Dog who was now grown very old and crazy, and had found no Species to multiply his Kind upon, sat always at my Right Hand, and two Cats, one on one Side the Table, and one on the other, expecting now and then a Bit from my Hand, as a Mark of special Favour.
But these were not the two Cats which I brought on Shore at first, for they were both of them dead, and had been interr’d near my Habitation by my own Hand; —
but one of them having multiply’d by I know not what Kind of Creature, these were two which I had preserv’d tame, whereas the rest run wild in the Woods, and became indeed troublesom to me at last; —
for they would often come into my House, and plunder me too, till at last I was obliged to shoot them, and did kill a great many; —
at length they left me with this Attendance, and in this plentiful Manner I lived; —
neither could I be said to want any thing but Society, and of that in some time after this, I was like to have too much.
I was something impatient, as I have observ’d, to have the Use of my Boat; —
though very loath to run any more Hazards; —
and therefore sometimes I sat contriving Ways to get her about the Island, and at other Times I sat my self down contented enough without her. —
But I had a strange Uneasiness in my Mind to go down to the Point of the Island, where, as I have said, in my last Ramble, I went up the Hill to see how the Shore lay, and how the Current set, that I might see what I had to do: —
This Inclination encreas’d upon me every Day, and at length I resolv’d to travel thither by Land, following the Edge of the Shore. I did so: —
But had any one in England been to meet such a Man as I was, it must either have frighted them, or rais’d a great deal of Laughter; —
and as I frequently stood still to look at my self, I could not but smile at the Notion of my travelling though Yorkshire with such an Equipage, and in such a Dress: —
Be pleas’d to take a Scetch of my Figure as follows,
I had a great high shapeless Cap, made of a Goat’s Skin, with a Flap hanging down behind, as well to keep the Sun from me, as to shoot the Rain off from running into my Neck; —
nothing being so hurtful in these Climates, as the Rain upon the Flesh under the Cloaths.
I had a short Jacket of Goat-Skin, the Skirts coming down to about the middle of my Thighs; —
and a Pair of open-knee’d Breeches of the same, the Breeches were made of the Skin of an old He-goat, whose Hair hung down such a Length on either Side, that like Pantaloons it reach’d to the middle of my Legs; —
Stockings and Shoes I had none, but had made me a Pair of some-things, I scarce know what to call them, like Buskins to flap over my Legs, and lace on either Side like Spatter-dashes; —
but of a most barbarous Shape, as indeed were all the rest of my Cloaths.
I had on a broad Belt of Goats-Skin dry’d, which I drew together with two Thongs of the same, instead of Buckles, and in a kind of a Frog on either Side of this. —
Instead of a Sword and a Dagger, hung a little Saw and a Hatchet, one on one Side, one on the other. —
I had another Belt not so broad, and fasten’d in the same Manner, which hung over my Shoulder; —
and at the End of it, under my left Arm, hung two Pouches, both made of Goat’s-Skin too; —
in one of which hung my Powder, in the other my Shot: —
At my Back I carry’d my Basket, on my Shoulder my Gun, and over my Head a great clumsy ugly Goat-Skin Umbrella, but which, after all, was the most necessary Thing I had about me, next to my Gun: —
As for my Face, the Colour of it was really not so Moletta-like as one might expect from a Man not at all careful of it, and living within nine or ten Degrees of the Equinox. —
My Beard I had once suffer’d to grow till it was about a Quarter of a Yard long; —
but as I had both Scissars and Razors sufficient, I had cut it pretty short, except what grew on my upper Lip, which I had trimm’d into a large Pair of Mahometan Whiskers, such as I had seen worn by some Turks, who I saw at Sallee; —
for the Moors did not wear such, tho’ the Turks did; —
of these Muschatoes or Whiskers, I will not say they were long enough to hang my Hat upon them; —
but they were of a Length and Shape monstrous enough, and such as in England would have pass’d for frightful.
But all this is by the by; for as to my Figure, I had so few to observe me, that it was of no manner of Consequence; —
so I say no more to that Part. In this kind of Figure I went my new Journey, and was out five or six Days. I travell’d first along the Sea Shore, directly to the Place where I first brought my Boat to an Anchor, to get up upon the Rocks; —
and having no Boat now to take care of, I went over the Land a nearer Way to the same Height that I was upon before, when looking forward to the Point of the Rocks which lay out, and which I was oblig’d to double with my Boat, as is said above: —
I was surpriz’d to see the Sea all smooth and quiet, no Ripling, no Motion, no Current, any more there than in other Places.
I was at a strange Loss to understand this, and resolv’d to spend some Time in the observing it, to see if nothing from the Sets of the Tide had occasion’d it; —
but I was presently convinc’d how it was, viz. —
That the Tide of Ebb setting from the West, and joyning with the Current of Waters from some great River on the Shore, must be the Occasion of this Current; —
and that according as the Wind blew more forcibly from the West, or from the North, this Current came nearer, or went farther from the Shore; —
for waiting thereabouts till Evening, I went up to the Rock again, and then the Tide of Ebb being made, I plainly saw the Current again as before, only, that it run farther off, being near half a League from the Shore; —
whereas in my Case, it set close upon the Shore, and hurry’d me and my Canoe along with it, which at another Time it would not have done.
This Observation convinc’d me, That I had nothing to do but to observe the Ebbing and the Flowing of the Tide, and I might very easily bring my Boat about the Island again: —
But when I began to think of putting it in Practice, I had such a Terror upon my Spirits at the Remembrance of the Danger I had been in, that I could not think of it again with any Patience; —
but on the contrary, I took up another Resolution which was more safe, though more laborious; —
and this was, That I would build, or rather make me another Periagua or Canoe; —
and so have one for one Side of the Island, and one for the other.
You are to understand, that now I had, as I may call it, two Plantations in the Island; —
one my little Fortification or Tent, with the Wall about it under the Rock, with the Cave behind me, which by this Time I had enlarg’d into several Apartments, or Caves, one within another. —
One of these, which was the dryest, and largest, and had a Door out beyond my Wall or Fortification; —
that is to say, beyond where my Wall joyn’d to the Rock, was all fill’d up with the large Earthen Pots, of which I have given an Account, and with fourteen or fifteen great Baskets, which would hold five or six Bushels each, where I laid up my Stores of Provision, especially my Corn, some in the Ear cut off short from the Straw, and the other rubb’d out with my Hand.
A for my Wall made, as before, with long Stakes or Piles, those Piles grew all like Trees, and were by this Time grown so big, and spread so very much, that there was not the least Appearance to any one’s View of any Habitation behind them.
Near this Dwelling of mine, but a little farther within the Land, and upon lower Ground, lay my two Pieces of Corn-Ground, which I kept duly cultivated and sow’d, and which duly yielded me their Harvest in its Season; —
and whenever I had occasion for more Corn, I had more Land adjoyning as fit as that.
Besides this, I had my Country Seat, and I had now a tollerable Plantation there also; —
for first, I had my little Bower, as I call’d it, which I kept in Repair; —
that is to say, I kept the Hedge which circled it in, constantly fitted up to its usual Height, the Ladder standing always in the Inside; —
I kept the Trees which at first were no more than my Stakes, but were now grown very firm and tall; —
I kept them always so cut, that they might spread and grow thick and wild, and make the more agreeable Shade, which they did effectually to my Mind. In the Middle of this I had my Tent always standing, being a piece of a Sail spread over Poles set up for that Purpose, and which never wanted any Repair or Renewing; —
and under this I had made me a Squab or Couch, with the Skins of the Creatures I had kill’d, and with other soft Things, and a Blanket laid on them, such as belong’d to our Sea-Bedding, which I had saved, and a great Watch-Coat to cover me; —
and here, whenever I had Occasion to be absent from my chief Seat, I took up my Country Habitation.
Adjoyning to this I had my Enclosures for my Cattle, that is to say, my Goats: —
And as I had taken an inconceivable deal of Pains to fence and enclose this Ground, so I was so uneasy to see it kept entire, lest the Goats should break thro’, that I never left off till with infinite Labour I had stuck the Out-side of the Hedge so full of small Stakes, and so near to one another, that it was rather a Pale than a Hedge, and there was scarce Room to put a Hand thro’ between them, which afterwards when those Stakes grew, as they all did in the next rainy Season, made the Enclosure strong like a Wall, indeed stronger than any Wall.
This will testify for me that I was not idle, and that I spared no Pains to bring to pass whatever appear’d necessary for my comfortable Support; —
for I consider’d the keeping up a Breed of tame Creatures thus at my Hand, would be a living Magazine of Flesh, Milk, Butter and Cheese, for me as long as I liv’d in the Place, if it were to be forty Years; —
and that keeping them in my Reach, depended entirely upon my perfecting my Enclosures to such a Degree, that I might be of keeping them together; —
which by this Method indeed I so effectually secur’d, that when these little Stakes began to grow, I had planted them so very thick, I was forced to pw some of them up again.
In this Place also I had my Grapes growing, which I principally depended on for my Winter Store of Raisins; —
and which I never fail’d to preserve very carefully, as the best and most agreeable Dainty of my whole Diet; —
and indeed they were not agreeable only, but physical, whole-some, nourishing, and refreshing to the last Degree.
As this was also about half Way between my other Habitation, and the Place where I had laid up my Boat, I generally stay’d, and lay here in my Way thither; —
for I used frequently to visit my Boat, and I kept all Things about or belonging to her in very good Order; —
sometimes I went out in her to divert my self, but no more hazardous Voyages would I go, nor scarce ever above a Stone’s Cast or two from the Shore, I was so apprehensive of being hurry’d out my Knowledge again by the Currents, or Winds, or any ether Accident. —
But now I come to a new Scene of my Life. It happen’d one Day about Noon going towards my Boat, I was exceedingly surpriz’d with the Print of a Man’s naked Foot on the Shore, which was very plain to be seen in the Sand: —
I stood like one Thunder-struck, or as if I had seen an Apparition; —
I listen’d, I look’d round me, I could hear nothing, nor see any Thing, I went up to a rising Ground to look farther, I went up the Shore and down the Shore, but it was all one, I could see no other Impression but that one, I went to it again to see if there were any more, and to observe if it might not be my Fancy; —
but there was no Room for that, for there was exactly the very Print of a Foot, Toes, Heel, and every Part of a Foot; —
how it came thither, I knew not, nor could in the least imagine. —
But after innumerable fluttering Thoughts, like a Man perfectly confus’d and out of my self, I came Home to my Fortification, not feeling, as we say, the Ground I went on, but terrify’d to the last Degree, looking behind me at every two or three Steps, mistaking every Bush and Tree, and fancying every Stump at a Distance to be a Man; —
nor is it possible to describe how many various Shapes affrighted Imagination represented Things to me in, how many wild Ideas were found every Moment in my Fancy, and what strange unaccountable Whimsies came into my Thoughts by the Way.
When I came to my Castle, for so I think I call’d it ever after this, I fled into it like one pursued; —
whether I went over by the Ladder as first contriv’d, or went in at the Hole in the Rock, which I call’d a Door, I cannot remember; —
no, nor could I remember the next Morning, for never frighted Hare fled to Cover, or Fox to Earth, with more Terror of Mind than I to this Retreat.
I slept none that Night; the farther I was from the Occasion of my Fright, the greater my Apprehensions were, which is something contrary to the Nature of such Things, and especially to the usual Practice of all Creatures in Fear: —
But I was so embarrass’d with my own frightful Ideas of the Thing, that I form’d nothing but dismal Imaginations to my self, even tho’ I was now a great way off of it. —
Sometimes I fancy’d it must be the Devil; —
and Reason joyn’d in with me upon this Supposition: —
For how should any other Thing in human Shape come into the Place? —
Where was the Vessel that brought them? —
What Marks was there of any other Footsteps? —
And how was it possible a Man should come there? —
But then to think that Satan should take human Shape upon him in such a Place where there could be no manner of Occasion for it, but to leave the Print of his Foot behind him, and that even for no Purpose too, for he could not be sure I should see it; —
this was an Amusement the other Way; —
I consider’d that the Devil might have found out abundance of other Ways to have terrify’d me than this of the single Print of a Foot. That as I liv’d quite on the other Side of the Island, he would never have been so simple to leave a Mark in a Place where ‘twas Ten Thousand to one whether I should ever see it Or not, and in the Sand too, which the first Surge of the Sea upon a high Wind would have defac’d entirely: —
All this seem’d inconsistent with the Thing it self, and with all the Notions we usually entertain of the Subtilty of the Devil.
Abundance of such Things as these assisted to argue me out’ of all Apprehensions of its being the Devil: —
And I presently concluded then, that it must be some more dangerous Creature, (viz. —
) That it must be some of the Savages of the main Land over-against me, who had wander’d out to Sea in their Canoes; —
and either driven by the Currents, or by contrary Winds had made the Island; —
and had been on Shore, but were gone away again to Sea, being as loth, perhaps, to have stay’d in this desolate Island, as I would have been to have had them.
While these Reflections were rowling upon my Mind, I was very thankful in my Thoughts, that I was so happy as not to be thereabouts at that Time, or that they did not see my Boat, by which they would have concluded that some Inhabitants had been in the Place, and perhaps have search’d farther for me: —
Then terrible Thoughts rack’d my Imagination about their having found my Boat, and that there were People here; —
and that if so, I should certainly have them come again in greater Numbers, and devour me; —
that if it should happen so that they should not find me, yet they would find my Enclosure, destroy all my Corn, carry away all my Flock of tame Goats, and I should perish at last for meer Want.
Thus my Fear banish’d all my religious Hope; —
all that former Confidence in God which was founded upon such wonderful Experience as I had had of his Goodness, now vanished, as if he that had fed me by Miracle hitherto, could not preserve by his Power the Provision which he had made for me by his Goodness: —
I reproach’d my self with my Easiness, that would not sow any more Corn one Year than would just serve me till the next Season, as if no Accident could intervene to prevent my enjoying the Crop that was upon the Ground; —
and this I thought so just a Reproof, that I resolv’d for the future to have two or three Years Corn beforehand, so that whatever might come, I might not perish for want of Bread.
How strange a Chequer Work of Providence is the Life of Man! —
and by what secret differing Springs are the Affections hurry’d about as differing Circumstance present To Day we love what to Morrow we hate; —
to Day we seek what to Morrow we shun; —
to Day we desire what to Morrow we fear; —
nay even tremble at the Apprehensions of; —
this was exemplify’d in me at this Time in the most lively Manner imaginable; —
for I whose only Affliction was, that I seem’d banished from human Society, that I was alone, circumscrib’d by the boundless Ocean, cut off from Mankind, and condemn’d to what I call’d silent Life; —
that I was as one who Heaven thought not worthy to be number’d among the Living, or to appear among the rest of his Creatures; —
that to have seen one of my own Species, would have seem’d to me a Raising me from Death to Life, and the greatest Blessing that Heaven it self, next to the supreme Blessing of Salvation, could bestow; —
I say, that I should now tremble at the very Apprehensions of seeing a Man, and was ready to sink into the Ground at but the Shadow or silent Appearance of a Man’s having set his Foot in the Island.
Such is the uneven State of human Life: —
And it afforded me a great many curious Speculations afterwards, when I had a little recover’d my first Surprize; —
I consider’d that this was the Station of Life the infinitely wise and good Providence of God had determin’d for me, that as I could not foresee what the Ends of Divine Wisdom might be in all this, so I was not to dispute his Sovereignty, who, as I was his Creature, had an undoubted Right by Creation to govern and dispose of me absolutely as he thought fit; —
and who, as I was a Creature who had offended him, had likewise a judicial Right to condemn me to what Punishment he thought fit; —
and that it was my Part to submit to bear his Indignation, because I had sinn’d against him.
I then reflected that God, who was not only Righteous but Onmipotent, as he had thought fit thus to punish and afflict me, so he was able to deliver me; —
that if he did not think fit to do it, ‘twas my unquestion’d Duty to resign my self absolutely and entirely to his Will; —
and on the other Hand, it was my Duty also to hope in him, pray to him, and quietly to attend the Dictates and Directions of his daily Providence.
These Thoughts took me up many Hours, Days; —
nay, I may say, Weeks and Months; —
and one particular Effect of my Cogitations on this Occasion, I cannot omit, viz. —
One Morning early, lying in my Bed, and fill’d with Thought about my Danger from the Appearance of Savages, I found it discompos’d me very much, upon which those Words of the Scripture came into my Thoughts, Call upon me in the Day of Trouble, and I will deliver, and thou shalt glorify me.
Upon this, rising chearfully out of my Bed, my Heart was not only comforted, but I was guided and encourag’d to pray earnestly to God for Deliverance: —
When I had done praying, I took up my Bible, and opening it to read, the first Words that presented to me, were, Wait on the Lord, and be of good Cheer, and he shall strengthen thy Heart; —
wait, I say, on the Lord: —
It is impossible to express the Comfort this gave me. —
In Answer, I thankfully laid down the Book, and was no more sad, at least, not on that Occasion.
In the middle of these Cogitations, Apprehensions and Reflections, it came into my Thought one Day, that all this might be a meer Chimera of my own; —
and that this Foot might be the Print of my own Foot, when I came on Shore from my Boat: —
This chear’d me up a little too, and I began to perswade my self it was all a Delusion; —
that it was nothing else but my own Foot, and why might not I come that way from the Boat, as well as I was going that way to the Boat; —
again, I consider’d also that I could by no Means tell for certain where I had trod, and where I had not; —
and that if at last this was only the Print of my own Foot, I had play’d the Part of those Fools, who strive to make stories of Spectres, and Apparitions; —
and then are frighted at them more than any body.
Now I began to take Courage, and to peep abroad again; —
for I had not stirr’d out of my Castle for three Days and Nights; —
so that I began to starve for Provision; —
for I had little or nothing within Doors, but some Barley Cakes and water. —
Then I knew that my Goats wanted to be milk’d too, which usually was my Evening Diversion; —
and the poor Creatures were in great Pain and Inconvenience for want of it; —
and indeed, it almost spoil’d some of them, and almost dry’d up their Milk.
Heartning my self therefore with the Belief that this was nothing but the Print of one of my own Feet, and so I might be truly said to start at my own Shadow, I began to go abroad again, and went to my Country House, to milk my Flock; —
but to see with what Fear I went forward, how often I look’d behind me, how I was ready every now and then to lay down my Basket, and run for my Life, it would have made any one have thought I was haunted with an evil Conscience, or that I had been lately most terribly frighted, and so indeed I had.
However, as I went down thus two or three Days, and having seen nothing, I began to be a little bolder; —
and to think there was really nothing in it, but my own Imagination: —
But I cou’d not perswade my self fully of this, till I should go down to the Shore again, and see this Print of a Foot, and measure it by my own, and see if there was any Similitude or Fitness, that I might be assur’d it was my own Foot: —
But when I came to the Place, First, It appear’d evidently to me, that when I laid up my Boat, I could not possibly be on Shore any where there about. —
Secondly, When I came to measure the Mark with my own Foot, I found my Foot not so large by a great deal; —
both these Things fill’d my Head with new Imaginations, and gave me the Vapours again, to the highest Degree; —
so that I shook with cold, like one in an Ague: —
And I went Home again, fill’d with the Belief that some Man Or Men had been on Shore there; —
or in short, that the Island was inhabited, and I might be surpriz’d before I was aware; —
and what course to take for my Security I knew not.
O what ridiculous Resolution Men take, when possess’d with Fear! —
It deprives them of the Use of those Means which Reason offers for their Relief. —
The first Thing I propos’d to my self, was, to throw down my Enclosures, and turn all my tame Cattle wild into the Woods, that the Enemy might not find them; —
and then frequent the Island in Prospect of the same, or the like Booty: —
Then to the simple’ Thing of Digging up my two Corn Fields, that they might not find such a Grain there, and still be prompted to frequent the Island; —
then to demolish my Bower, and Tent, that they might not see any Vestiges of Habitation, and be prompted to look farther, in order to find out the Persons inhabiting.
These were the Subject of the first Night’s Cogitation, after I was come Home again, while the Apprehensions which had so over-run my Mind were fresh upon me, and my Head was full of Vapours, as above: —
Thus Fear of Danger is ten thousand Times more terrifying than Danger it self, when apparent to the Eyes; —
and we find the Burthen of Anxiety greater by much, than the Evil which we are anxious about; —
and which was worse than all this, I had not that Relief in this Trouble from the Resignation I used to practice, that I hop’d to have. —
I look’d, I thought, like Saul, who complain’d not only that the Philistines were upon him; —
but that God had forsaken him; —
for I did not now take due Ways to compose my Mind, by crying to God in my Distress, and resting upon his Providence, as I had done before, for my Defence and Deliverance; —
which if I had done, I had, at least, been more cheerfully supported under this new Surprise, and perhaps carry’d through it with more Resolution.
This Confusion of my Thoughts kept me waking all Night; —
but in the Morning I fell asleep, and having by the Amusement of my Mind, been, as it were, tyr’d, and my Spirits exhausted; —
I slept very soundly, and wak’d much better compos’d than I had ever been before; —
and now I began to think sedately; —
and upon the utmost Debate with my self, I concluded, That this Island, which was so exceeding pleasant, fruitful, and no farther from the main Land than as I had seen, was not so entirely abandon’d as I might imagine: —
That altho’ there were no stated Inhabitants who liv’d on the Spot; —
yet that there might sometimes come Boats off from the Shore, who either with Design, or perhaps never, but when they were driven by cross Winds, might come to this Place.
That I had liv’d here fifteen Years now, and had not met with the least Shadow or Figure of any People yet; —
and that if at any Time they should be driven here, it was probable they went away again as soon as ever they could, seeing they had never thought fit to fix there upon any Occasion, to this Time.
That the most I cou’d suggest any Danger from, was, from any such casual accidental Landing of straggling People from the Main, who, as it was likely if they were driven hither, were here against their Wills; —
so they made no stay here, but went off again with all possible Speed, seldom staying one Night on Shore, least they should not have the Help of the Tides, and Day-light back again; —
and that therefore I had nothing to do but to consider of some safe Retreat, in Case I should see any Savages land upon the Spot.
Now I began sorely to repent, that I had dug my Cave so large, as to bring a Door through again, which Door, as I said, came out beyond where my Fortification joyn’d to the Rock; —
upon maturely considering this therefore, I resolv’d to draw me a second Fortification, in the same Manner of a Semicircle, at a Distance from my Wall, just where I had planted a double Row of Trees, about twelve Years before, of which I made mention: —
These Trees having been planted so thick before, they wanted but a few Piles to be driven between them, that they should be thicker, and stronger, and my Wall would be soon finish’d.
So that I had now a double Wall, and my Outer Wall was thickned with Pieces Of Timber, old Cables, and every Thing I could think of, to make it strong; having in it seven little Holes, about as big as I might put my Arm out at: —
In the In-side of this, I thickned my Wall to above ten Foot thick, with continual bringing Earth out of my Cave, and laying it at the Foot of the Wall, and walking upon it; —
and through the seven Holes, I contriv’d to plant the Musquets, of which I took Notice, that I got seven on Shore out of the Ship; —
these, I say, I planted like my Cannon, and fitted them into Frames that held them like a Carriage, that so I could fire all the seven Guns in two Minutes Time: —
This Wall I was many a weary Month a finishing, and yet never thought my self safe till it was done.
When this was done, I stuck all the Ground without my Wall, for a great way every way, as full with Stakes or Sticks of the Osier like Wood, which I found so apt to grow, as they could well stand; —
insomuch, that I believe I might set in near twenty thousand of them, leaving a pretty large Space between them and my Wall, that I might have room to see an Enemy, and they might have no shelter from the young Trees, if they attempted to approach my outer Wall.
Thus in two Years Time I had a thick Grove and in five or six Years Time I had a Wood before my Dwelling, growing so monstrous thick and strong, that it was indeed perfectly impassable; —
and no Men of what kind soever, would ever imagine that there was any Thing beyond it, much less a Habitation: —
As for the Way which I propos’d to my self to go in and out, for I left no Avenue; —
it was by setting two Ladders, one to a Part of the Rock which was low and then broke in, and left room to place another Ladder upon that; —
so when the two Ladders were taken down, no Man living could come down to me without mischieving himself; —
and if they had come down, they were still on the Out-side of my outer Wall.
Thus I took all the Measures humane Prudence could suggest for my own Preservation; —
and it will be seen at length, that they were not altogether without just Reason; —
though I foresaw nothing at that Time, more than my meer Fear suggested to me.
While this was doing, I was not altogether Careless of my other Affairs; —
for I had a great Concern upon me, for my little Herd of Goats; —
they were not only a present Supply to me upon every Occasion, and began to be sufficient to me, without the Expence of Powder and Shot; —
but also without the Fatigue of Hunting after the wild Ones, and I was loth to lose the Advantage of them, and to have them all to nurse up over again.
To this Purpose, after long Consideration, I could think of but two Ways to preserve them; —
one was to find another convenient Place to dig a Cave Under-ground, and to drive them into it every Night; —
and the other was to enclose two or three little Bits of Land, remote from one another and as much conceal’d as I could, where I might keep about half a Dozen young Goats in each Place: —
So that if any Disaster happen’d to the Flock in general, I might be able to raise them again with little Trouble and Time: —
And this, tho’ it would require a great deal of Time and Labour, I thought was the most rational Design.
Accordingly I spent some Time to find out the most retir’d Parts of the Island; —
and I pitch’d upon one which was as private indeed as my Heart could wish for; —
it was a little damp Piece of Ground in the Middle of the hollow and thick Woods, where, as is observ’d, I almost lost my self once before, endeavouring to Come back that Way from the Eastern Part of the Island: —
Here I found a clear Piece of Land near three Acres, so surrounded with Woods, that it was almost an Enclosure by Nature, at least it did not want near so much Labour to make it so, as the other Pieces of Ground I had work’d so hard at.
I immediately went to Work with this Piece of Ground, and in less than a Month’s Time, I had so fenc’d it round, that my Flock or Herd, call it which you please, who were not so wild now as at first they might be supposed to be, were well enough secur’d in it. —
So, without any farther Delay, I removed ten young She-Goats and two He-Goats to this Piece; —
and when they were there, I continued to perfect the Fence till I had made it as secure as the other, which, however, I did at more Leisure, and it took me up more Time by a great deal.
All this Labour I was at the Expence of, purely from my Apprehensions on the Account of the Print of a Man’s Foot which I had seen; —
for as yet I never saw any human Creature come near the Island, and I had now liv’d two Years under these Uneasinesses, which indeed made my Life much less comfortable than it was before; —
as may well be imagin’d by any who know what it is to live in the constant Snare of the Fear of Man; —
and this I must observe with Grief too, that the Discomposure of my Mind had too great Impressions also upon the religious Part of my Thoughts, for the Dread and Terror of falling into the Hands of Savages and Canibals, lay so upon my Spirits, that I seldom found my self in a due Temper for Application to my Maker, at least not with the sedate Calmness and Resignation of Soul which I was wont to do; —
I rather pray’d to God as under great Affliction and Pressure of Mind, surrounded with Danger, and in Expectation every Night of being murther’d and devour’d before Morning; —
and I must testify from my Experience, that a Temper of Peace, Thankfulness, Love and Affection, is much more the proper Frame for Prayer than that of Terror and Discomposure; —
and that under the Dread of Mischief impending, a Man is no more fit for a comforting Performance of the Duty of praying to God, than he is for Repentance on a sick Bed: —
For these Discomposures affect the Mind as the others do the Body; —
and the Discomposure of the Mind must necessarily be as great a Disability as that of the Body, and much greater, Praying to God being properly an Act Of the Mind, not of the Body.
But to go on; After I had thus secur’d one Part of my little living Stock, I went about the whole Island, searching for another private Place, to make such another Deposit; —
when wandring more to the West Point of the Island, than I had ever done yet, and looking out to Sea, I thought I saw a Boat upon the Sea, at a great Distance; —
I had found a Prospective Glass, or two, in one of the Seamen’s Chests, which I sav’d out of our Ship; —
but I had it not about me, and this was so remote, that I could not tell what to make of it; —
though I look’d at it till my Eyes were not able to hold to look any longer; —
whether it was a Boat, or not, I do not know; —
but as I descended from the Hill, I could see no more of it, so I gave it over; —
only I resolv’d to go no more out without a Prospective Glass in my Pocket.
When I was come down the Hill, to the End of the Island, where indeed I had never been before, I was presently convinc’d, that the seeing the Print of a Man’s Foot, was not such a strange Thing in the Island as I imagin’d; —
and but that it was a special Providence that I was cast upon the Side of the Island, where the Savages never came: —
I should easily have known, that nothing was more frequent than for the Canoes from the Main, when they happen’d to be a little too far out at Sea, to shoot over to that Side of the Island for Harbour; —
likewise as they often met, and fought in their Canoes, the Victors having taken any Prisoners, would bring them over to this Shore, where according to their dreadful Customs, being all Canibals, they would kill and eat them; —
of which hereafter.